Okay...

[arib]

So, I'm not usually a jealous person, and I'm *really* trying not to be possessive.
Crystal ended up being unable to see me yesterday for New Year's for completely understandable reasons. When she gets tired, she gets *tired* and fast. So, when she tells me she can't drive all the way in to the city, and is spending the night at a friend's, she means it.
Why do I flip out so totally?
I... blew up at her. Far more than I should have.
I feel like I've set things back quite a ways because I acted like an idiot.
This morning, while she was on the road, we spoke on the phone for two hours. It was a great conversation, and we spoke about *lots* of important stuff, as well as some fun, not-of-consequence, enjoying ourselves stuff.
Why am I annoyed when she can't talk this evening because she's entertaining friends?

Yeah, I had to endure some heavy psychodrama from some close friends yesterday (see the previous post,) and I would've liked to spend some downtime with her before exams, so it's fine for me to feel annoyed that I couldn't see her.
But it doesn't quite explain why I reacted the way I did.

I'm probably over-analyzing, and angsting, like I *always* do when it comes to her.

(Crys, if you're reading this, thwap me upside the head next time you see me, okay?)

Exams in the morning. Joy. :-)
On the other hand, I seem to know this Western Civilization stuff pretty well...

Comments

[gingicat]

Apologize profusely when you see her, and get her flowers (or something equally thoughtful and romantic if she doesn't like flowers). And think about your triggers and try not to do it again.

It's kinda like a mini-Yom Kippur -- the way to truly earn forgiveness is to try not to do it again.