I feel like a horrible girlfriend recently, Ari. I have so many things going on -- my schoolwork, my job, my conversion, and occasional friend and family psychodrama (never mind another relationship, too) -- but that shouldn't be pushing you to the edges of my life. The thing is, I'm hoping we can survive a little while longer to a place where I *can* contribute more to our relationship again. I spent a lot of time "surviving" stuff going on in our relationship this summer. I know you're doing similarly right now. I just don't know what I can do to fix that right now. The last thing I want is to lose you, Ari. Despite all we've gone through (or perhaps because of it), you are very important to me. Right now, though, there are a LOT of really important things going on. I'm not going to get everything, not even all my priorities, taken care of. Some things are going to drop. The past couple of weeks, I've mostly been dropping the ball on job and Ari stuff because they were things I thought could survive without me for a while. I've been taking midterms and figuring out whether I can get through Hebrew class (which I can't) and reading lots of rabbi books and homework books ... and I'm overwhelmed a lot. It's why I've been sleeping a lot more, too. Stuff with Jon and Bess hasn't helped, either.

Bottom line? Give it some time, and I think we'll come out on top. I just need to get *through* what's going on right now.