So, we've figured out some of why I'm so down...

Apparently, Regalen, the scrip I was taking for my stomach-bug, has a few side-effects that are psychological in nature. Things like anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation. I had the first two, and wanted to avoid the third, so I decided, after talking with my Mom, an RN, to discontinue taking it.

So now, any problems that I perceive are real, right? :-)

Seriously, I've always been a worrier, and I've had a lot on my plate lately.
Issues with school, problems with money, issues with graduation and moving back to Boston, relationship problems with Crys, lots of things...

A senior's last semester is supposed to be the easiest, right? Mine's the toughest yet, mostly because all but one of my classes are requirements for graduation, as opposed to classes I *want* to take. I mean, sure, Medieval Jewish History is interesting, and it's giving me some insight into why my SCA friends love the time period so much, but Western Civ is dull, and it's mostly the professor's fault. When you drone on endlessly, and refuse to let students ask questions, then assign huge papers, we *won't* be interested in your class, so don't be surprised when people get up and leave mid-lecture. The only reason *I* stay is so I can type all your notes down and save 'em for the exam. If I had to handwrite everything out, I'd be lost. That leaves my two bible classes, Proverbs, and Job. Two interesting, but *looong* once-a-week classes that I try to comprehend. Fortunately, the professors are of the mercy-pass type, so, while I'll bust my hump to get a good grade, I don't need to worry about failing. The last class is my Social Psychology of Evil class, which has been really interesting, and unfortunately, very timely. It's helped me understand a lot of what's been going on in the news, as well as understanding what our various politicians might be thinking.

Fortunately, my money problems have resolved themselves. All I'll say is that my grandma and parents have been very understanding, and I'm still financially independent. Yay me!

I'm kinda scared to graduate. As of right now, I have *no* idea what I'll be doing after January. It's a new phase of my life, and as of right now, I'm not yet prepared for it. I'll be working on my resume and sending it out, as well as poking around looking for jobs within the next few weeks, after my papers and exams have quieted down.

I love Crystal dearly, but I've been feeling very cut-off from her lately. She hasn't had much time to talk, which I definitely understand, but I miss, deeply. Our conversations used to be so much fun, but now we barely have time to update each other on our lives before one or the other of us needs to go. I just want to be able to sit and talk with her for an hour or so about nothing in particular. Just flirt, read a story and catch up without feeling pressured by anything, or worried that I'm wasting her time. I'm not denying that she and I have issues that need working out, and I want to discuss those with her, too, but those can wait until we have some face-to-face time, I think some fun talks will do us some good, as well. I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving weekend, besides being able to spend a weekend at home with my family, which is usually nice, but I'll be taking Crystal to my HS class' annual reunion party, which is something that we've been talking about doing since we started dating. It's always fun, and a lot of my freinds have really wanted to meet her. Plus, she'll get to see what I grew up with. :-)

I told Mom that I was planning to spend the Chanukah weekend with Crys. This is after my folks repeatedly told me that they thought my spending the night with her was inappropriate, and such. Mom's only reaction: "But, you'll be in Boston two weeks in a row..."

I'll never understand my parents, ever.

This is shaping up to be the longest post I've written so far. yay, me! :-)

Well, time for me to head over to Hanan and Deborah's, watch Enterprise, then install my new hard drive

So, we've figured out some of why I'm so down...

Apparently, Regalen, the scrip I was taking for my stomach-bug, has a few side-effects that are psychological in nature. Things like anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation. I had the first two, and wanted to avoid the third, so I decided, after talking with my Mom, an RN, to discontinue taking it.

So now, any problems that I perceive are real, right? :-)

Seriously, I've always been a worrier, and I've had a lot on my plate lately.
Issues with school, problems with money, issues with graduation and moving back to Boston, relationship problems with Crys, lots of things...

A senior's last semester is supposed to be the easiest, right? Mine's the toughest yet, mostly because all but one of my classes are requirements for graduation, as opposed to classes I *want* to take. I mean, sure, Medieval Jewish History is interesting, and it's giving me some insight into why my SCA friends love the time period so much, but Western Civ is dull, and it's mostly the professor's fault. When you drone on endlessly, and refuse to let students ask questions, then assign huge papers, we *won't* be interested in your class, so don't be surprised when people get up and leave mid-lecture. The only reason *I* stay is so I can type all your notes down and save 'em for the exam. If I had to handwrite everything out, I'd be lost. That leaves my two bible classes, Proverbs, and Job. Two interesting, but *looong* once-a-week classes that I try to comprehend. Fortunately, the professors are of the mercy-pass type, so, while I'll bust my hump to get a good grade, I don't need to worry about failing. The last class is my Social Psychology of Evil class, which has been really interesting, and unfortunately, very timely. It's helped me understand a lot of what's been going on in the news, as well as understanding what our various politicians might be thinking.

Fortunately, my money problems have resolved themselves. All I'll say is that my grandma and parents have been very understanding, and I'm still financially independent. Yay me!

I'm kinda scared to graduate. As of right now, I have *no* idea what I'll be doing after January. It's a new phase of my life, and as of right now, I'm not yet prepared for it. I'll be working on my resume and sending it out, as well as poking around looking for jobs within the next few weeks, after my papers and exams have quieted down.

I love Crystal dearly, but I've been feeling very cut-off from her lately. She hasn't had much time to talk, which I definitely understand, but I miss, deeply. Our conversations used to be so much fun, but now we barely have time to update each other on our lives before one or the other of us needs to go. I just want to be able to sit and talk with her for an hour or so about nothing in particular. Just flirt, read a story and catch up without feeling pressured by anything, or worried that I'm wasting her time. I'm not denying that she and I have issues that need working out, and I want to discuss those with her, too, but those can wait until we have some face-to-face time, I think some fun talks will do us some good, as well. I'm really looking forward to Thanksgiving weekend, besides being able to spend a weekend at home with my family, which is usually nice, but I'll be taking Crystal to my HS class' annual reunion party, which is something that we've been talking about doing since we started dating. It's always fun, and a lot of my freinds have really wanted to meet her. Plus, she'll get to see what I grew up with. :-)

I told Mom that I was planning to spend the Chanukah weekend with Crys. This is after my folks repeatedly told me that they thought my spending the night with her was inappropriate, and such. Mom's only reaction: "But, you'll be in Boston two weeks in a row..."

I'll never understand my parents, ever.

This is shaping up to be the longest post I've written so far. yay, me! :-)

Well, time for me to head over to Hanan and Deborah's, watch Enterprise, then install my new hard drive